Apprehension....... ***sigh***

It is said that thinking can get you in trouble. I think I am in trouble because I have been thinking about A LOT of things!!!

Thought #1: Is "It" worth it? You have to determine what "IT" is. "IT" will be different for every person. For me, right now, "IT" is Lap Band. Is "IT" worth the $$$--the liquid diet--the watching what I am eating--the water walk (frequent trips to the bathroom because of drinking alot of water)--the hunt for a protein drink that won't make me gag--exercising--pain, muscle aches,.........oh, the list is HUGH! ***sigh***
Is "IT" worth it? YES

Thought #2: Life will change. It is up to me if it will be a good or bad change. It MUST BE a mind set change......but it will take a long time----am I up for this? Am I ready for the "long haul"?

Thought #3: I am thinking the key to remaining focused is remembering why....why do I want the Lap Band, is "IT" worth it........

...To be healthy
...I am tired of being fat.
...So I don’t feel disgusted looking at myself in the full-length mirror
...To fit comfortably in an airplane seat.
...To be able to run up a flight of stairs.
...To not sweat so much.
...To be able to seat in a chair with arms and feel comfortable.
...To never have to worry again whether I will fit in a booth at a restaurant.
...So my feet don’t hurt so much.
...So my knees don’t hurt so much.
...So my back doesn’t hurt so much.
...So I’m not always huffing and puffing when I walk so far.
...So I don't have to put a washcloth under my pot belly to prevent chaffing
...So I can buy clothes anywhere.
...So I don’t feel out of place in a “normal” size clothing store.
...So I can paint my toenails
...So I don’t feel so out of control about my eating.
...So I am not constantly hungry.
...To be satisfied on small amounts of really good food.
...To enjoy my food
...So that I have more energy.
...So that I don’t ever have to deal with discrimination just due to my size.
...To sit on the floor and not have to do ridiculous maneuvers to get up.
...To be able to cross my legs properly.
...So my ankles don’t get swollen when it’s hot out or after work.
...So I dont have to use so much powder so my fat rolls won't stick together
...So I can get closer to the table when I’m eating to avoid getting food on the "boobshelf"
...To get off blood pressure meds.
...To have a regular towel wrap ALL the way around me.
...So that I never have to see the term “morbidly obese” (unless combined with “formerly”) on my medical chart.
...To be the size my mind's eye sees
...To not tolerate Texas summers
...To be successful at losing weight for the first time ever.
...So my husband has a hot wife.
...So that when my husband tells me that he thinks I’m beautiful no matter what I weigh, I don’t think he’s just humoring me.
...So that if I’m ever stuck in a tall building during an emergency, I’ll know I can get down all the stairs.
...To go hiking again
...To prove to myself that I can meet any goal I set
...To be able to wear high heels comfortably
...To wear pretty bras and not just huge, functional ones.
...So I can wipe butt clean with no struggles
...So I don’t have to keep starting new diets in hopes that this will be “the one”.

Is "IT" worth it?

Ya-----I think it is!

PS: I must thank Stephanie at Electric Lady Band for making this list that I used to describe my thoughts exactly! It's amazing how much we have in common! Thanks Stephanie!